Discouragement

I haven't posted for a long time. Things have been pretty hectic and sometimes very difficult...but mostly I have just not given my all to the cause of being my best self. I am back where I started and very discouraged about it.

I have heard that an alcoholic usually has to reach bottom before they can climb out of their self made pit - and perhaps that is where I am. So maybe this discouragement is a good thing in a very twisted way! LOL

I have decided that I will log my food here as well as any exercise. Maybe that needs to be the first step. So tomorrow the journey begins anew. Maybe I am like Lehi and his family - constantly going back to Jerusalem before they really got started! Just wish I were that faithful!