Renewal

Today I weighed in after being gone for about a month - down a pound and at 330. I would jump for joy but the reality is that I don't really deserve that one pound. I was fine for the better part of the month - but the last 10 days were nothing but a pig out. I am EXTREMELY bloated and miserable. My joints ache throughout my body and I am seriously beginning to wonder if I have PAD or am allergic to the joint that is in my foot. I also itch like crazy too.

Anyway - we got back on Monday and I still ate stupidly on Tuesday - but since Wednesday I have done much, much better and I am feeling less bloated than before - had felt like my feet were going to burst - the skin was that tight. I think I react that badly to soda as well - so I am back off of it now too. When am I going to learn???? Seriously????? What amazes me is that I have no excuse - my body really does respond when given things that are healthy for it. I would like to believe otherwise - it would take the responsibility away if it were true - but it isn't. I am beginning to feel the effects already - I just need to take this seriously and not play around with it. Perhaps there was a time when it wasn't as life threatening as this is now - but that isn't the case anymore. So I am renewing my committment AGAIN!